This week I met with a Hindi Loyola student, and it was a completely different experience from my last interview. VN is a sophomore whose parents live in the Chicago area. Her sister is a freshman at Loyola, and they have a very close relationship with each other and with their parents. MA, the Hindi student, is a graduate student from Tibet. Her family lives in Tibet, and she is struggling with whether to remain in the US after graduation or to return to Tibet to be closer to her family. MA was extremely shy, and for every question I asked, I had to practically pry the answer out of her. She seemed almost embarrassed to be talking about herself, and was very uncomfortable discussing Hinduism.
MA was raised in Tibet, and attended Catholic school there because of the poor quality of the public school system. We talked extensively about the religious teaching she experienced there, which she said was extensive. It seems, in her experience, that a pressure to learn about Catholicism is considered a fair trade for a higher quality education, but she said that it had no impact on her as a child. She was never interested in exploring Catholicism as a religious option for herself. I told her that it sounded like a negative experience, and she shrugged. She said that she appreciated the education, but she wouldn’t consider it an enjoyable experience. So how did she end up in the US at a Catholic university?
MA had quite a bit of trouble answering this. She said that the morals of the school were appealing, as was the focus on having a broad world view and a commitment to social justice. She also felt that she was familiar with Catholic institutions and would be able to navigate well through the religious aspect of the curriculum.
Yet when MA arrived at Loyola, she found herself in somewhat of an identity crisis. She said that she has struggled to find her place, to find friends, to form bonds. She does not feel connected to the Hindi student group, but also does not feel completely comfortable with non-Hindi students. She is interested in learning more about Catholicism, but conflicted about what that means for the faith tradition she was raised in.
At this point in our discussion, MA told me that she thought she was the exception to the rule, that many of her Hindi friends are happy with their Loyola experience. I asked her what it was about herself that she thought caused this discontent with the experience, and she was unable to articulate an answer.
She said that she is extremely nervous at the prospect of returning to Tibet, that she is scared she won’t fit in there any longer, either. She is waiting to hear if she will be offered any of the positions she has interviewed for and, if not, will be leaving the US. This seemed to be an emotionally difficult time for MA, and I ended the interview wondering if our conversation would have gone differently at a different time in her university experience.